| [heyyyy.] |
[Jan. 26th, 2009|11:55 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | pink - sober. | ] |
i have to do some serious bra shopping today, my itec is all fucked up. So i'm hit la senza up before i go to work. That means i should get a move on it & start drying my hair and such.
that is all... haha.
check out my blog :b
http://ihatejasmine.blogspot.com/
my blog , like totally rules.
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| [soooo.] |
[Dec. 27th, 2008|02:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ladyhawke | ] |
i'm kinda like my blogspot better then the eljay as of lately.
so i guess you can find me here. If anyone has one let me know i want more blogspot friends..
http://ihatejasmine.blogspot.com/
i`ll most likely update this one once in a while, blogspot is just easier for everything.
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| [toronto .. i miss thee.] |
[Dec. 10th, 2008|10:37 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  nostalgic | ] |
i miss toronto
i miss my toronto friends.
i miss dirty after hours clubs..
i miss drinking at the bovine being drunk, sing rock n roll and metal at the top of my lungs, being rudy to people who i thinkless of, making fun of those lesser people with my friends and being a bitch.
i miss the good ol' late nights.
i miss seeing a band like every weekend!
i miss ammatos pizza & hot sauce (very tastey when your drunkkk mmm)
i miss random cute boy's in leather jackets, tight blue jeans & converse sneakers.
i miss meeting new people/bands every weekend.
i miss the crazy nights.. where there wasnt a care in the world, no one had to drive cause we'd cab, walk or bus(which is where the after hours comes in just stay somewhere untill they start to run). they would be no work, or you just wouldnt care you'd take the two hours sleep before work & then work!
they we're rough times, but goodtimes.
i don't want order, i want disorder.
i don't want routine, i want random.
so what i want to do with my life is take something that can allow my to have alot of downtown time, or really cool so i think im leaning towards make-up & special effects. I think im still keen on going to the complections school. |
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| [titled: curtis] |
[Dec. 4th, 2008|02:07 pm] |
It's come to my attention that curtis isnt talking to me?
& i dont know why?
cause when i saw him at the bovine a month or so we seemed fine, i was with friends who were very rude, did they do something that maybe i don't know about? cause i know they did sorta make fun of my friend jay which was totally rude, i didnt even know about it until jay told me.
curtis whats up!?
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| [i need it, i need it.] |
[Dec. 3rd, 2008|01:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | joy division - ceremony | ] |
So i've lost another job once again.
niagara clean air, said i wasnt booking enough appointments my number's were to low.
so they let me go. merry christmas.
so i have two options.
stay in st.kitts, be unhappy, hate life, think about killing myself, stay between jobs, not being able to pay my bills.
or.
take meg up on her offer, couch surf at her place, hopefully get a job where she's working making baskets at nine dollars n hour, which seems pretty easy enough. & save money to lease my friend chris's apartment in april. The sad thing is that i wont be able to bring my kittys to megs i'm gonna miss em so much. :(
see chris i leaving for paris for like a year in april & he doesnt want to get rid of his toronto apartment clearly cause he's coming back. So i want to grab it, it will have all his stuff in it still, but i could bring some of my stuff up eventually, and maybe my kitty. It's 800 a month, i know its expensive, but if i can save up money from working and staying with meg, then hopefully it will be affordable. I just have to try something different cause this fucking st.kitt's thing isnt working out for me.
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| [blah blah blah] |
[Nov. 24th, 2008|08:51 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
So today is my first day of a full day of work.
when on thursday they sent us home so they could have time to filter the list.
so hopefully we get appointments today.
i need the cash :)
friday is pay day.
gotta pay cable bill.
cell phone bill.
cibc bill.
put 100 dollars away for alberta.
still have to call futureshop and talk to that debbie person.
to grab in interview i called about twice already once friday monring talked to melinda & she had never phoned me back.
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| [stuff.] |
[Nov. 21st, 2008|09:12 am] |
yay i got a last pay check from intel.
i can buy josh's birthday gift now.
im gonna go to the pen center today.
then im gonna put some money away for my "Go see josh fund"
i have enough to pay columbia house payment, & cancel my gym membership.
or i might make my mom pay for that.
i dunno.
i do know i have to go to the doctors today. blah.
go to the pen center i want to buy a sweater & his gift.
call futureshop & make in interview with em.
busy bee.
good thing i don';t have to work today.
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| [ yeah you love, yeah you need me, yeah you bleed me , the blood it fills your cup] |
[Nov. 20th, 2008|08:18 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
Got a job, finally.
start today at ten, sadly i have to still wake up early and leave the house by eight thirty to take my three buses there!
i'm alright with that tho.. its worth it i maybe have a second job hopefully. *crosses fingers^
I'm saving up to go visit josh.
im aiming for feb.
the sooner the better you know?
im gonna be setting aside 100 bucks every paycheck (i get paid every week from my job)
the fight i was looking at in feb was almost 400 bucks pretty cheap.
here's hoping.
also jessica & i went to the gym last night had so much fun loved it.
so much better when you go with someone who's awesome.
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| [love won't die.] |
[Nov. 18th, 2008|11:08 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | crash kelly. | ] |
new crash kelly album.
on facebook i had a long chat with sean kelly, i miss him.
i havent seen him in years. i havent seen the band in a few years aswell.
i miss hanging out in toronto i miss the rock nroll the goodtimes, good people, having fun.
the new crash kelly album rocks.
16 on a summer night - crash kelly. <3.
up and down the blvd.
we were the night bergade
sharing smokes,crackin dirty jokes
i guess we had it made
long lost days and it felt so good
maybe better then they should
i guess we always thought they would last
forever..ever
slippin rum into a cherry cola
do our hair up just like rock n rolla's
framed in the fire light
16 on a summer night
a little wrong turns out alright
16 on a summer night.
i meet you down at the goverment docks
we walk the slippery rocks,
a fifth a gin and the state we we're in.
spreading teenage dumb talk
we would paly those cheap
guitars underneath them northern stars
powerchords on the pacific shore
last forever... ever...
slippin rum into a cherry cola
do our hair up just like rock n rolla's
framed in the fire light
16 on a summer night
a little wrong turns out alright
16 on a summer night.
slippin rum into a cherry cola
do our hair up just like rock n rolla's
framed in the fire light
16 on a summer night
a little wrong turns out alright
16 on a summer night.
16 on a summer night.
a little wrong turns out alright.
16 on a summer night.
♥
♥
xo.
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| [fuck.] |
[Nov. 13th, 2008|07:41 pm] |
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im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,im so fucked,
If i don't find a job
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| [jesus...] |
[Nov. 12th, 2008|02:37 pm] |
i can't find a fucking job.
jesus. christ why is this so fucking hard!
i dont get it..
arg.
this is not good, not good at all.
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| [the dark half.] |
[Oct. 30th, 2008|11:51 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  weird | ] |
| [ | music |
| | movie:the dark half. | ] |
so i've bought a pair of black peep toe heel's they are tres cute.
i needed a plain black back of heel's. They were only 41 bucks american on amiclubwear.com
they have plenty of shoes & boot's i want. :)
lovely arn't they?
josh has gotten a really good job in alberta finally. :)
I'm so happy for him. It's gonna be really good for him.
i've actually been thinking about saving up for a ticket maybe in january .. guess i'd have to talk to josh first but i miss him lots.. i'd like to vist, i started full time again in nov. so we will see how it goes i guess, but do i really want to be in alberta in january.. i'd freez. It also would depend on his work/school. I dunno i just would like to see him, haha.
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| [foood.] |
[Oct. 20th, 2008|05:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
so i actually made something that was delish.
i went to the foodland today and was like i want tacos, but they didnt have the taco kit, with the soft shell & the taco sauce you add on to the meat, so instead i just bought the soft shell tacos, a tomatoe, and a green pepper some hat sauce, so i cook up the meat i cut the veggies, and i add some hot sauce in to the meat so it like has some flavor, then i was like im just going to cook the veggies (& onion!) into the meat and cook that in with it, i grate some cheese, throw it on a soft shell taco with some more hot sauce and mm a tasty meal.
it was filling aswell i could only eat two!
maybe im actually not that bad at cooking ... haha
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| [quack attack.] |
[Oct. 8th, 2008|02:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cold | ] |
went to the library picked up two book's or my reading pleasure. "choke" & "haunted"
by chuck pahalniuk. i ♥ them.
last night i got no sleep, i had alot on my mind, i think within the last few months i've gotten less & less sleep.
i went to bed around 330 last night, i put on D2 mighty ducks cause i thought to myself this will totally put me to sleep, except for the fact i realized how much i love those movies & i got all excited and was like DUCKS ARE BACK QUACK ATTACK!
i downloaded this show tru calilng, i love it pretty sure it was aired one season here then the second season aired in the usofa. so i got both seasons and im watching them.
i didn't go into work at 2 today, kinda cause i was super tired going in for four oclock my usually shift, hopefully we can work till 12 tonight if enough people want to stay.
my gst came in, its exactly enough to cover my over draft, which is good!
tomorrow i'm gonna go in at two oclock & friday to make up for not going in at 2 today.
friday night going to partyyyy woo.
saturday work at ten til' six - shoe shopping for the wedding on he 18th- halloween costume shopping - movies- food.
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| [thanks...] |
[Oct. 6th, 2008|09:50 pm] |
for ignoring certian messages of mine on facebook & myspace, i hope that he realizes that i know he's ignored them...im not stupid.
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| [work & more work.] |
[Oct. 2nd, 2008|02:59 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | weird | ] |
| [ | music |
| | led zeppelin - thats the way. | ] |
so ive been working alot, kinda, ive called into my morning job this week twice, because ive been way to tired, i work there from 10 till 2, then i go to my other job from 3 till 11. I get home dont sleep till about 1 or 2 oclock wake up around like six thirty or seven oclock and repeat. Im gonna have to start getting used to going to both jobs every day.
i finished off watching the rest of pushing daisies season one, the first epsidoe of season one aired last night i downloaded it & watched it so now im all caught up. exciting. i love that show.
alright i gotta get my stuff ready cause i gotta go.
its rainy!
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| [i keep holding it inside, & i wish that you were near its better when your here.] |
[Sep. 23rd, 2008|11:22 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  gloomy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | buckcherry - dont go away. | ] |
so it's been really hard for me bury my feeling's for josh deep down & away, its hard because they are there and i know their there. Its like im lying to myself seriously. I still have people asking me : "why arn't you in alberta with josh?" now when he was here i got "are you going to alberta with josh" i would say only to get questions back like "what you don't like josh enough? or you dont like alberta?" i certinly do like josh enough to move out there, i tell people well he never asked me, and then i get "why not" how am i supposed to know why he didnt ask me ? its something thats been brought up, and i can only assume its because i wasnt that important to him to which he thought i need to bring this girl out here with me cause i dont want to lose her. I mean i can only assume like i said, but seriously i thought it would stop by now i thought people would stop asking me stupid questions, well do you miss him? yes i miss it kills me, i dont know what people want to hear do they want to hear that im so super hurt that he's gone, that i want to be with him? That i sit there and pretend like i dont care & that i dont like him when in fact i do. Like i dont know what to say?
people are like we'll i bet he will come back, thats nice he can come back but who's to say when he comes back that he's gonna want to be with me?
josh had his alberta plans way before he met me, like years before he met me, im pretty sure, he didnt want anything to get in the way of that,It just so happens i met him when he actually went thru with his plan, bad timing on my part i guess, i knew what i was getting into when i met him, i said he was worth and he is, i still cant picture me being with anyone else.. i really cant when i was with him i had people trying to set me up on dates, i had guys asking me out saying well clearly he doenst deserve you, i had alot of people tell me that one of my best friends would almost tell me that on a daily basis, i had one of his good friends telling me that josh didnt really care, & that he's getting what he wants(his friend telling me this not a reliable source btw), josh has never been 100 percent with me on his feelings for me he's been always really vauge, what can a girl do ? nothing haha. who know's what will happen. im just trying really hard not to express my feelings for him, or to him ive said all there is i can say to him none of it matters anyways. i dont expect anything from him anyways, maybe one day he'll surprise me , cause all i've ever gotten out of him is the night before we moved ruth when we were laying in bed he just turned to me said "i love you" & i looked at him i was a bit shocked, but never said anything back cause i realized he won't even remember saying this in the morning. i do think maybe i should have replied.. cause really he didnt remember it in the morning to my knowledge anyways.
then again people do say that when your drunk your truest feeling's do come out , and seeing as he buried his feelings for me, they have to come out sometime right? it shall remain a mystery
oh everyone should download the new buckcherry album. <3
its sooo awesome, josh todd = one of the best lead singer's ever.
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